Assalamualaikum and hey! hm have you ever wonder who you will be friend with when you are in university after being separated with you bff since primary school? Honestly, i don't. During my primary & secondary school, I only valued 1 bff for real. So, when I further my studies & apart from her, I feel lonely & can't manage to finish my study w/o her, beside me, protecting me. Yup, that's me, so clingy (I noe) Okay, this university thinggy keeps on giving me headache & stress about the people around me. Yeah, they being so fake in front of you. Behind you, they talk rubbish. Out of sudden, the truth keeps on coming & it really hurts (i swear) cause i fucking believe in them, didn't expect they will do this to me. After all this time, their kindness is just an acting perhaps? After that, I just made a gap between all of them cause I din wanna get hurt nymore. Wherever I go, I will go ALONE cause I feel better that way. No fake friends, no fake hopes, no fake smile. I get annoyed easily, so when i knew you were just pretending, my face show it all. I can't fake my expression tho, it's clearly state on my face that "i don't give a damn about you, so get out of my way & stop being fake, i know who you are. Get lost!" expression. Fuhh, today, another story, another anger. Yesterday, i ws one of my classmate because i want him to be part of my teammate but then, out of sudden, he just said that he will be their teammate eventho they ws him today terus dia setuju like hello, bukan aku ke cop kau dulu hahaha gi mampos aku tak hadap pun nak satu group ngan kau. Sbb terpaksa je aku amik ko tau! I can't digest why they even stole my so called teammate tak guna. Din have any member yet stole my teammate. But hey, i din give a damn abt it but I just feel like wadehekkkkk (Can't you all feel me?) Haih, habis pahala puasa I harini. Semorang I nak boikot pasni. Korang sabarjap hahahaha can't chill nymoreee. Sorryyyy doh if my attitude makin kurang ajar because korang yang turned me into this okay. Cannot blame me oso. I just protecting myself! So jeng jeng jeng, wait & see

Tengok muka atas ni, ade muka jahat tak? Hahahaha

Assalamualaikum and hye! hm where should i start this? Okay lah, just straight to the point. Gini, i think i need to tell the new people in my life to less care on me & mind the fucking gap cause i don't feel like sharing my life, my stories with someone new. I will keep my diploma friend for real and...about getting close to the new friend is suddenly out of the list. This happens when i consequently noticed the changes in people once they get to know me. It's on the good side but the bad side is on me. Secondly, i will not be like the girl who i used to be back then, i may be different a bit (think a hell big of different but nvm). So to the nominated people that i will sacked out of my life, i'm so so sorry. I did it for our own benefits. I'm not putuskan silaturrahim or what, but i think it's good, for both of us *insert lagu wanita terakhir like lol kau ingat kelakar ke* I will delete everythingg, every moments that we had so that i can get rid of you, easily. Nahh, cukuplah what diploma taught me. Be careful with the people that are close to you, because...once you're close, you trust them, and when your trust is being played, you know you can't make any close friend after that. Anything & everything needs a fucking gap no matter how much you denied, it's the truth. Dah la, satu je aku mintak lepasni. If we ever bumped into each other, trust me that i won't even look you in the eyes cause i don't mind your fucking existence like, look at my face, do i really care? You're not that close to ask me that bundle of questions, not that close to even talk to me, so goodbye! I'm aware of people nowadays, & thank you for showing it to me. I will mind the gap from now.

Nah bunga, salam perpisahan muehehehe

Hi and assalamualaikum guyssss. Wanna share something about don't lose faith in Allah. Why? Even if you're in trouble, you are sick, you don't have enough time to study, you're stress over something, over people, JUST DON'T. There is that moment that Allah wants you to remember Him. Maybe you're away from Him and that's the only reason to put you back on track. Shoutout to the people who left me heartbroken, who chase other friends and left me... hey as you can see, i can survive! with or without you. To the people yang always sentap and everything, i'm so sorry cause this is me, i don't get it why you're so sensitive over small thing like "tak balas whatsapp pun kena marah"? hahahaha this is unacceptable tho. Maybe because you're new to me, so you didn't realized. I'm not that picky okay. Semua orang aku layan sama. Second!! When you're in the final mode, out of sudden? guess what? after you don't have enough time to study cause the gap is so fucking (unreasonable) to digest, i lost rm50 (i was so down the other day till i didn't have any mood to eat & to study at all) Putus harapan gila, dengan i was so sick (fever, flu, cough) then i suddenly remembered that mom once told me, "Dugaan yang kita dapat ni, bukan sebab Allah tak sayang. Sebab Allah sayang lah Allah uji kita. Selain dari nak kita dekat dengan dia, mungkin sebab kita dah jauh ataupun sebab Allah rindu kita. Apa-apa pun, berbalik pada Dia" At that moment, aku terus solat, rasa dekat gila, ya Allah. First time i feel so close like really close to Him cause i don't know what to do anymore, this pain is unbearable, i can't handle it but people keeps on saying that i can! Thank you for those yang always keep in touch with me when i'm sick, always there, always call me, always worried about me, do know that you are special you guys are special for me. Thank you for existing and thank you for staying no matter how hard it is to be with me. I love you guys. Mohon terharu sbb aku tak senang nak sayang orang ni haa sebab i tak mudah nak percaya orang! Now, period pain comes in the middle of one day gap hahahahaha then i started to question one by one, why did this happening to me, why me, why now etc then i called mom, asking all those thing and i said that "i tak kuat dah nak sambung degree kalo ceniiiii" mak just cakap, "Sekarang hanya mampu istighfar, zikir and banyakkan berdoa je sebab itu je yang mampu. Jangan putus harapan, study je. At least kita tahu kita dah cuba sedaya upaya, dah berusaha, Allah akan tolong kita, cuma satu je, jangan putus harapan dengan Allah. Okay." Then, the final day, Allah permudahkan semuanya, yes, bila kau percaya dia, bende tak mudah nampak mudah je, dari tak smooth, everything went well. Alhamdulillah, the reason is, for how many times you lost, you down, just remember to get up as Allah's always there for you. People leave, Allah stay. People have no time for you, but Allah does. 

Kita lanje gambar baru habis paper tadi k. Ger lu, bye geng!